ZZYZX 05 Aug 2006 04:52 pm
Waiting
Lots of things are different now that I have quit smoking. I have made a lot of adjustments to the way I think, and how I deal with my feelings. I am no longer indifferent to the weather, since I don’t have to go out in it regardless of how hot or cold it is. I don’t have to smoke when I drive, or after a meal anymore. My first thought on waking up is not about where my cigarettes are. I often even forget I am quitting smoking.
The hardest adjustment for me to make has been waiting. I used to be able to wait patiently for as long as it took to smoke a cigarette. I didn’t mind the prospect of waiting too much. I had something I could do to kill the time. I even fooled myself into believing that its fun to stand outside and watch the people go by, while I suck cigarette smoke into my lungs.
Now, waiting is a pain in the neck. I hate it. The idea of going to Wal-Mart is too terrible to contemplate. I always waited outside with a cigarette there. Overall, I am more impatient now. I don’t know if I’ll ever go fishing again. What else is there to do while waiting for the fish to jump on the hook?
I realize now that, in the past, maybe I was not as patient as I thought I was. Maybe I was just looking for excuses to feed my addictions. Either way, I hate to wait now.
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on 05 Aug 2006 at 5:27 pm 1.Brad said …
Congrats on quitting, it’s a difficult task. I used to smoke also, pretty much only when I drank, so it wasn’t too hard for me to quit (luckily). Strangely enough, one day smoking just wasn’t that enjoyable anymore plus my girlfriend at the time didn’t smoke so that made it easier.
I’m not even sure why I quit exactly. I always knew that it’s bad for you and that “big tobacco” was evil, as we can all tell from watching any of the truth commercials on tv. By the way I’m sure everyone had seen them , there hard to miss, the one’s featuirng the guy with the big hair reading quotes from tobacco execs and end with whudafxup? Since they run mostly on MTV from what I have seen I wonder if they are getting kids to not smoke or quit?
Anyway, good luck in finding something to occupy your mind while fishing. Later.