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Junkie thinking

When I was about a week or ten days into my quit, I had a really wierd thought. I was congratulating myself for a good start on my quit, and decided I needed a reward. So the reward I thought about was a cigarette. I thought about that for a minute, and realized it is pretty dumb. How is that a reward for quitting?

I have had many more encounters with junkie thinking since. The junkie in me sings siren songs of lies to entice me to feed my addiction. At times it is a very strong voice, sometimes a whisper. Sometimes it shuts up. Then I am happy.

What the junkie thinking tells me is just stupid. It says I can have just one cigarette. I know thats a lie. One will never be enough. It tells me I cannot quit, I don’t have what it takes. That’s a lie, I have quit and stayed quit until it started to get better. It tells me it’s not worth suffering the withdrawal, and I know it’s well worth enduring that and more. The junkie thinking never tells me the truth.

It’s important to recognize when you are thinking like a junkie. It is the voice of the addiction that’s fighting for it’s life, just like you are. You need to win that fight. Your life is more than a food processor for an addiction. Stand fast on the high ground of the truth, and you will be able to reject the lies, even your own.

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